Tuesday, October 26, 2004
Taurus
You have moments of glory and days of just getting by. Right now you're hanging somewhere in between. Some expenses can't be justified even when you're worth it. Some mysteries can't be explained even when you try getting to the bottom of it all. Wealth comes and goes in your life. Your genius isn't hardwired. Instead, it passes through you like a mood or the weather. To celebrate these ephemeral things, fill your house with seasonal flowers. Your senses could use a massage by any means necessary.
You have moments of glory and days of just getting by. Right now you're hanging somewhere in between. Some expenses can't be justified even when you're worth it. Some mysteries can't be explained even when you try getting to the bottom of it all. Wealth comes and goes in your life. Your genius isn't hardwired. Instead, it passes through you like a mood or the weather. To celebrate these ephemeral things, fill your house with seasonal flowers. Your senses could use a massage by any means necessary.
Monday, October 25, 2004
Hello all, I had a great weekend...how about you?
A lot of rushing around Friday afternoon. Both UNLV and I were late getting to Knotts. It was pretty hectic but we both finally made it. We started out the evening with a buffet dinner, which was ok at best. Then we had some drinks and hopped into the jaccuzzi for some relaxation before heading into the park. I think we both needed it after our long drives.
Knotts was soooooo crowded! I just don't remember it ever being like that, and I know that part of it was because we went on a weekend. Years prior, we had always gone on a weeknight. Now "Halloween Haunt" is on weekends ONLY. Even the hostess at the breakfast buffet said, "I heard that it's not as good this year..." to which UNLV agreed wholeheartedly by saying "there's just too many kids!"
To help deal with this overcrowded situation, we sought comfort in the beer garden. We spent about an hour there, then went back again because our buzz started to wear off. I think I had fun because it was with UNLV. We had a good little drunken heart to heart at the beer garden, and it was just nice to hang out with him again. After years of trying to figure our our friendship, I think we really finally have.
Saturday night, we just went around Gaslamp. First we ate at Moose's, but the atmosphere was a little strange. Then we walked around a bit. But you know, a small part of the evening was disappointing because we went to see The Disco Pimps at 5th Quarter (formerly Buffalo Joe's), and they played anything BUT disco! I didn't pay a cover to hear Snoop Dog or Outkast. I would have seen The Top 40 Pimps for that crap. Oh wait, there IS NO Top 40 Pimps. Fancy that. I should have asked for my money back.
We left and bar hopped the rest of the night. There was a cool band playing at Croce's, and we went to Jimmy Love's, but nothing tickled our fancy. We called it a night and hung out a my house for a bit.
UNLV went home Sunday, and I watched football and did NOTHING. I think I knitted, but that's it. This weekend will be a little crazier because it will be Halloween in Vegas, which neither of us ever did until now.
Oh...THE CHARGERS WON!
Had to get that in...
A lot of rushing around Friday afternoon. Both UNLV and I were late getting to Knotts. It was pretty hectic but we both finally made it. We started out the evening with a buffet dinner, which was ok at best. Then we had some drinks and hopped into the jaccuzzi for some relaxation before heading into the park. I think we both needed it after our long drives.
Knotts was soooooo crowded! I just don't remember it ever being like that, and I know that part of it was because we went on a weekend. Years prior, we had always gone on a weeknight. Now "Halloween Haunt" is on weekends ONLY. Even the hostess at the breakfast buffet said, "I heard that it's not as good this year..." to which UNLV agreed wholeheartedly by saying "there's just too many kids!"
To help deal with this overcrowded situation, we sought comfort in the beer garden. We spent about an hour there, then went back again because our buzz started to wear off. I think I had fun because it was with UNLV. We had a good little drunken heart to heart at the beer garden, and it was just nice to hang out with him again. After years of trying to figure our our friendship, I think we really finally have.
Saturday night, we just went around Gaslamp. First we ate at Moose's, but the atmosphere was a little strange. Then we walked around a bit. But you know, a small part of the evening was disappointing because we went to see The Disco Pimps at 5th Quarter (formerly Buffalo Joe's), and they played anything BUT disco! I didn't pay a cover to hear Snoop Dog or Outkast. I would have seen The Top 40 Pimps for that crap. Oh wait, there IS NO Top 40 Pimps. Fancy that. I should have asked for my money back.
We left and bar hopped the rest of the night. There was a cool band playing at Croce's, and we went to Jimmy Love's, but nothing tickled our fancy. We called it a night and hung out a my house for a bit.
UNLV went home Sunday, and I watched football and did NOTHING. I think I knitted, but that's it. This weekend will be a little crazier because it will be Halloween in Vegas, which neither of us ever did until now.
Oh...THE CHARGERS WON!
Had to get that in...
Friday, October 22, 2004
I sooooooo don't want to be at work anymore.
I came in at 6am so that I could leave at 230pm to drive to Knotts Berry Farm. UNLV is driving down right now to meet me there. I haven't seen him in 2.5 months, and it feels like forever until 230pm (as I type this, it's about 1235pm).
My sister came over last night to drop my mom off. She takes my mom to work when I have an event that will bring me home after 7pm. Last night I had yoga. I wasn't sure if she was going to say hi to me, but she did. So I know we're basically ok, but there is definitely stuff that has to be cleared up.
I spoke to a friend last night and she said that maybe their absence will allow them time to realize what happened. Maybe my sister's husband will realize that he has to clear the air or else this tension is just going to build. It's just so easy and logical to me that all he has to do is be the bigger person and do something about it instead of letting this whole thing just fester.
But enough of that for right now. Did I mention that I got my Halloween costume last week? I bought a flapper outfit on ebay. It's actually very well done. It fits like a glove and I'm very excited to wear it. I'm going to be Velma Kelly from "Chicago". Our theme at work is "Hollywood" and in my territory, we're all going to be some kind of celebrity. One of my co-workers is going to be "Trashy Britney" and wear a trucker hat and "Mrs. Federline" on her shirt, hee hee. Another gal is going to be Karen from "Wil & Grace" and the only guy in our territory is going to be Joey McIntyre from New Kisds On The Block. I'm supposed to bring in posters and a New Kids shirt. I think I have my Jordan Knight shirt, but I have to find the other NKOTB shirt.
GEEZUS! Time is crawling.
Ok, until next week kids!
I came in at 6am so that I could leave at 230pm to drive to Knotts Berry Farm. UNLV is driving down right now to meet me there. I haven't seen him in 2.5 months, and it feels like forever until 230pm (as I type this, it's about 1235pm).
My sister came over last night to drop my mom off. She takes my mom to work when I have an event that will bring me home after 7pm. Last night I had yoga. I wasn't sure if she was going to say hi to me, but she did. So I know we're basically ok, but there is definitely stuff that has to be cleared up.
I spoke to a friend last night and she said that maybe their absence will allow them time to realize what happened. Maybe my sister's husband will realize that he has to clear the air or else this tension is just going to build. It's just so easy and logical to me that all he has to do is be the bigger person and do something about it instead of letting this whole thing just fester.
But enough of that for right now. Did I mention that I got my Halloween costume last week? I bought a flapper outfit on ebay. It's actually very well done. It fits like a glove and I'm very excited to wear it. I'm going to be Velma Kelly from "Chicago". Our theme at work is "Hollywood" and in my territory, we're all going to be some kind of celebrity. One of my co-workers is going to be "Trashy Britney" and wear a trucker hat and "Mrs. Federline" on her shirt, hee hee. Another gal is going to be Karen from "Wil & Grace" and the only guy in our territory is going to be Joey McIntyre from New Kisds On The Block. I'm supposed to bring in posters and a New Kids shirt. I think I have my Jordan Knight shirt, but I have to find the other NKOTB shirt.
GEEZUS! Time is crawling.
Ok, until next week kids!
Monday, October 18, 2004
What an up and down weekend.
My sister decided to move out this weekend. She says it's because her husband feels "tension" in the house, and also because of what I wrote in my blog. Well, there would be NO tension, had it not been for the horrible way he has been acting in my parent's house. Whether or not they are married, what he did is INEXCUSABLE. So now they have moved out...back to HIS parent's house.
If it were once...if he just threw that tantrum at Olive Garden back in March, maybe that would be ok. But he yelled and cussed out my sister at home during their fight. He loudly cusses at his video games when he's losing. He yelled at my mom. Then he yelled at me. We only lived in the same house for just about 6 months. All that in 6 months, and the first 2 incidents RIGHT AFTER my father passed away.
So is that right? If that were MY husband, I KNOW that all hell would break loose and no one would let me live it down. So why o WHY is her husband exempt? Why is it ok, and why do I have so submit to the situation? Why didn't I get an apology? I guarantee if anyone did that to any of their friend's sisters, you KNOW that they would be all over that person. But why am I not in the same category? Why don't they give a shit about MY FEELINGS?
Wanna talk about that? DAD DIED 7 MONTHS AGO, dears. I don't need to be cussed at and made uncomfortable in my own home. And you talk about TENSION THAT YOUR HUSBAND FEELS? Come now, tsk tsk.
I don't get how anyone could get so wrapped up in another person, no matter how wrong that person is. It's like I don't know my sister anymore. She can't distinguish between right and wrong, good and bad. I can't BELIEVE that she would think her husband's behavior is normal.
Dad would NEVER STAND for it. He would be so incredibly pissed that she would allow him to treat his family like that. The next time someone cusses out his mother, tell me how he feels and if he wouldn't hit the roof.
On to other things...
Saturday, I got my nails done and my haircut like Velma Kelly on "Chicago" for my flapper outfit for Halloween. But OH, on my way to dinner with Ten that night...I was cut off by a silver little penis comensating Nissan with the liscense plate XAHA BAM. I was leaving UTC and he cut me off. Then I flipped him off and he had the NERVE to try and run me off the road! I called the police, and if I had more time, I would have pressed charges because the gal at the police station said that could be deemed assault with a deadly weapon. But I just wanted to get to dinner, so I filed it as "wreckless driving" and alerted the police to his liscense plate in the area.
My Chargers lose to Atlanta 20-21 Sunday afternoon. They HAD them all the way until the 4th quarter. The running club didn't get to go out because it had stormed the night before. But I got New Balance running shoes...they're very nice.
But, I saw The Push Stars last night opening for Martin Sexton. Damn, they're good in concert! I got to meet the drummer and bass player and they signed a guest list for me.
I just want to hang out with UNLV and get away from all this crap.
My sister decided to move out this weekend. She says it's because her husband feels "tension" in the house, and also because of what I wrote in my blog. Well, there would be NO tension, had it not been for the horrible way he has been acting in my parent's house. Whether or not they are married, what he did is INEXCUSABLE. So now they have moved out...back to HIS parent's house.
If it were once...if he just threw that tantrum at Olive Garden back in March, maybe that would be ok. But he yelled and cussed out my sister at home during their fight. He loudly cusses at his video games when he's losing. He yelled at my mom. Then he yelled at me. We only lived in the same house for just about 6 months. All that in 6 months, and the first 2 incidents RIGHT AFTER my father passed away.
So is that right? If that were MY husband, I KNOW that all hell would break loose and no one would let me live it down. So why o WHY is her husband exempt? Why is it ok, and why do I have so submit to the situation? Why didn't I get an apology? I guarantee if anyone did that to any of their friend's sisters, you KNOW that they would be all over that person. But why am I not in the same category? Why don't they give a shit about MY FEELINGS?
Wanna talk about that? DAD DIED 7 MONTHS AGO, dears. I don't need to be cussed at and made uncomfortable in my own home. And you talk about TENSION THAT YOUR HUSBAND FEELS? Come now, tsk tsk.
I don't get how anyone could get so wrapped up in another person, no matter how wrong that person is. It's like I don't know my sister anymore. She can't distinguish between right and wrong, good and bad. I can't BELIEVE that she would think her husband's behavior is normal.
Dad would NEVER STAND for it. He would be so incredibly pissed that she would allow him to treat his family like that. The next time someone cusses out his mother, tell me how he feels and if he wouldn't hit the roof.
On to other things...
Saturday, I got my nails done and my haircut like Velma Kelly on "Chicago" for my flapper outfit for Halloween. But OH, on my way to dinner with Ten that night...I was cut off by a silver little penis comensating Nissan with the liscense plate XAHA BAM. I was leaving UTC and he cut me off. Then I flipped him off and he had the NERVE to try and run me off the road! I called the police, and if I had more time, I would have pressed charges because the gal at the police station said that could be deemed assault with a deadly weapon. But I just wanted to get to dinner, so I filed it as "wreckless driving" and alerted the police to his liscense plate in the area.
My Chargers lose to Atlanta 20-21 Sunday afternoon. They HAD them all the way until the 4th quarter. The running club didn't get to go out because it had stormed the night before. But I got New Balance running shoes...they're very nice.
But, I saw The Push Stars last night opening for Martin Sexton. Damn, they're good in concert! I got to meet the drummer and bass player and they signed a guest list for me.
I just want to hang out with UNLV and get away from all this crap.
Thursday, October 14, 2004
Taurus
What gives? Your normal routine isn't working as well as it usually does. Hmmm -- maybe it's time to exercise more flexibility on a mental, spiritual and physical level. So be on the lookout for an unexpected opportunity, especially if it's one that allows you to do something, use something or think in a way that you've never done before. Afterward, you might just want to scrap that routine permanently.
I'm going to take yoga for the first time today. And then my co-worker who is a yoga instructor sent me a knitting website where the gal incorporates yoga and knitting.
I knit...I've been knitting for almost a year.
There you go.
What gives? Your normal routine isn't working as well as it usually does. Hmmm -- maybe it's time to exercise more flexibility on a mental, spiritual and physical level. So be on the lookout for an unexpected opportunity, especially if it's one that allows you to do something, use something or think in a way that you've never done before. Afterward, you might just want to scrap that routine permanently.
I'm going to take yoga for the first time today. And then my co-worker who is a yoga instructor sent me a knitting website where the gal incorporates yoga and knitting.
I knit...I've been knitting for almost a year.
There you go.
Monday, October 11, 2004
It doesn't quite end, does it?
I thought that the rehashing of my father's death would have been finished by now...but it's not.
My mom asked me to fill out a complaint form that we're submitting to the Naval Hospital about the conduct of the surgeon that operated on my father. He was rude when the second tests were conducted to determine brain activity and instead of pulling us aside, he announced the news in the open air to the room. I had several relatives there, and the other family that wasn't related to us suddenly got up and left the room. My mom's primary doctor already began the complaint process for us because he said that just because we can't sue the Navy for possible malpractice and win, we can at least complain about the horrible bedside manner of the doctor in charge of my father's operation and make sure he is repremanded.
I'm also filling out visa and Philippine passport applications for my mom and now I have to indicate "widower" as her marital status, and it breaks my mom's heart everytime she has to read it.
My mom had to go to Palmdale this weekend to finish up the taxes because everything has changed. My mom has to go back to the hospital to get my father's W-2 because it was missing in the paperwork we sent to my aunt (she does our taxes).
We have to finish filling out the paperwork for the living trust, and the lawyer is going to call us when he has the "quit claim" form for my sister and her husband to sign so that the house goes back into my mom's name.
I feel like I'm inundated by paperwork, and I can't make it stop. I feel like my head is going to explode and my heart is breaking all over again.
Oh GOD, we have to worry about the grave marker. My sister said that it was the mortuary's mistake and that the will be taking care of it. I just went there on Saturday morning before my great aunt's birthday party and just absolutely sobbed. I sobbed more heavily than I had ever before. Seeing his name just rips apart my heart. I almost couldn't walk back up the grassy hill and had to sit again before resuming the walk to my car. I sat in my car and sobbed again for about 5 more minutes.
It's like I'm reliving everything again.
It's like someone is taking a wound that seems to be healing and ripping the bandages open and is forcing me to look at how deep the cut is.
I hate drama. With everything that's going on, I think that I just need to cut the drama in my life so that I don't have to deal with it ON TOP of all of this. I just want my life to be sedate and uneventful, so that when things like this happen, then I won't be on such an emotional rollercoaster. Some days are better than others, and for the last few enteries, I was having some very good weeks.
If I could just take 1 month and just get away...just to do nothing but knit, read, relax, travel a bit and really sleep.
This is definitely one of those waves that swell up to a crest and comes down crashing on me, and I'm left broken on the beach, confused and battered. I wonder how I get myself to work and how I get through the day.
A couple of my aunties asked me this weekend if I was dating or if I had a boyfriend. I said no, and they wanted to know if they could set me up. I explained that I just didn't want to do that right now. I don't have the energy to date, and I just want to take care of my family and myself right now. They kind of implored and asked me if I could just meet someone as a "friend" and I just said that I appreciate the gesture, but no.
Not right now...and even then, I don't know when...
I don't want to even think about it.
I thought that the rehashing of my father's death would have been finished by now...but it's not.
My mom asked me to fill out a complaint form that we're submitting to the Naval Hospital about the conduct of the surgeon that operated on my father. He was rude when the second tests were conducted to determine brain activity and instead of pulling us aside, he announced the news in the open air to the room. I had several relatives there, and the other family that wasn't related to us suddenly got up and left the room. My mom's primary doctor already began the complaint process for us because he said that just because we can't sue the Navy for possible malpractice and win, we can at least complain about the horrible bedside manner of the doctor in charge of my father's operation and make sure he is repremanded.
I'm also filling out visa and Philippine passport applications for my mom and now I have to indicate "widower" as her marital status, and it breaks my mom's heart everytime she has to read it.
My mom had to go to Palmdale this weekend to finish up the taxes because everything has changed. My mom has to go back to the hospital to get my father's W-2 because it was missing in the paperwork we sent to my aunt (she does our taxes).
We have to finish filling out the paperwork for the living trust, and the lawyer is going to call us when he has the "quit claim" form for my sister and her husband to sign so that the house goes back into my mom's name.
I feel like I'm inundated by paperwork, and I can't make it stop. I feel like my head is going to explode and my heart is breaking all over again.
Oh GOD, we have to worry about the grave marker. My sister said that it was the mortuary's mistake and that the will be taking care of it. I just went there on Saturday morning before my great aunt's birthday party and just absolutely sobbed. I sobbed more heavily than I had ever before. Seeing his name just rips apart my heart. I almost couldn't walk back up the grassy hill and had to sit again before resuming the walk to my car. I sat in my car and sobbed again for about 5 more minutes.
It's like I'm reliving everything again.
It's like someone is taking a wound that seems to be healing and ripping the bandages open and is forcing me to look at how deep the cut is.
I hate drama. With everything that's going on, I think that I just need to cut the drama in my life so that I don't have to deal with it ON TOP of all of this. I just want my life to be sedate and uneventful, so that when things like this happen, then I won't be on such an emotional rollercoaster. Some days are better than others, and for the last few enteries, I was having some very good weeks.
If I could just take 1 month and just get away...just to do nothing but knit, read, relax, travel a bit and really sleep.
This is definitely one of those waves that swell up to a crest and comes down crashing on me, and I'm left broken on the beach, confused and battered. I wonder how I get myself to work and how I get through the day.
A couple of my aunties asked me this weekend if I was dating or if I had a boyfriend. I said no, and they wanted to know if they could set me up. I explained that I just didn't want to do that right now. I don't have the energy to date, and I just want to take care of my family and myself right now. They kind of implored and asked me if I could just meet someone as a "friend" and I just said that I appreciate the gesture, but no.
Not right now...and even then, I don't know when...
I don't want to even think about it.
Friday, October 08, 2004
*sigh*
So, I guess it sort of worked out with my "leave of absence"/PTO situation. I talked to my HR department and she was very understanding and told me to just submit the request and see that happens. It worked out because all I need is 1 day of leave without pay, because 12/24 is the holiday and I can take my floating holiday on 12/27. And that's fine because 12/31 is a Friday and we'll have that off at work so if I want to go to Vegas again, it won't be a problem to leave Thursday night.
Enough of that. I think I'm going to take a yoga class once a week in addition to my running club. I'm going running every Wed for sure, and possibly on Sundays. Then there's a yoga class a co-worker teaches on Tues and Thurs, but I'll only be able to make the Thurs one. I'm going to train for a half marathon in Jan (I think I mentioned that in another entry), and I need to really get fit. I think I can start to see results by at least Nov.
I'm going to buy my plane ticket for Halloween weekend on Monday.
So, I guess it sort of worked out with my "leave of absence"/PTO situation. I talked to my HR department and she was very understanding and told me to just submit the request and see that happens. It worked out because all I need is 1 day of leave without pay, because 12/24 is the holiday and I can take my floating holiday on 12/27. And that's fine because 12/31 is a Friday and we'll have that off at work so if I want to go to Vegas again, it won't be a problem to leave Thursday night.
Enough of that. I think I'm going to take a yoga class once a week in addition to my running club. I'm going running every Wed for sure, and possibly on Sundays. Then there's a yoga class a co-worker teaches on Tues and Thurs, but I'll only be able to make the Thurs one. I'm going to train for a half marathon in Jan (I think I mentioned that in another entry), and I need to really get fit. I think I can start to see results by at least Nov.
I'm going to buy my plane ticket for Halloween weekend on Monday.
Thursday, October 07, 2004
MY WORK SUCKS!
Get THIS:
I tried to take a day off on Nov 1 after Halloween, but they denied my request because I exhausted all of my PTO (personal time off). I took a day of "leave without pay" when I went to pick up my mom from Canada, but my supervisor talked to our VP of Operations and said that would be my last day to take as "leave without pay" unless it was medical.
I explained that I didn't take a week of PTO earlier this year because I was lounging around in Hawaii...MY FATHER DIED! My supervisor said that she understands, but if I take any "unnecessary" days of LOP, then I would have to face "disciplinary action".
I was so upset I started crying...so they would fire me for taking a couple days off WITHOUT PAY because I choose to, because my father died???? I don't understand why they wouldn't consider my situation?
I'm so upset right now because now this is going to affect my Christmas trip to Canada. My mom and I don't want to stay here in San Diego at Christmas because it's going to be too hard...so we want to just go for a few days before, during and after Christmas to make it through the pain.
FUCK
Get THIS:
I tried to take a day off on Nov 1 after Halloween, but they denied my request because I exhausted all of my PTO (personal time off). I took a day of "leave without pay" when I went to pick up my mom from Canada, but my supervisor talked to our VP of Operations and said that would be my last day to take as "leave without pay" unless it was medical.
I explained that I didn't take a week of PTO earlier this year because I was lounging around in Hawaii...MY FATHER DIED! My supervisor said that she understands, but if I take any "unnecessary" days of LOP, then I would have to face "disciplinary action".
I was so upset I started crying...so they would fire me for taking a couple days off WITHOUT PAY because I choose to, because my father died???? I don't understand why they wouldn't consider my situation?
I'm so upset right now because now this is going to affect my Christmas trip to Canada. My mom and I don't want to stay here in San Diego at Christmas because it's going to be too hard...so we want to just go for a few days before, during and after Christmas to make it through the pain.
FUCK
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
RANDOM THOUGHTS
You know what I love?
I love it when I go to a true barista and that person knows my name, knows what coffee drink I want, and knows how to make a REAL cup of espresso. Independently owned coffee carts are the BEST.
I am scared of:
The Marilyn Manson website. Why you ask am I visiting a Marilyn Manson website? Well, he redid Depeche Mode's "Personal Jesus" and I want to check out what they're saying about it. But it's hard for me to look at it at work because it looks like I'm looking at demonic devil worshipping and I don't want anyone to get the wrong impression. The verison sounds interesting, and I'd like to own a copy, as I would like to purchase the Johnny Cash version, too.
I am anxious about:
Running. I have agreed to do a running club with some work people and the first one is tomorrow. I think it will be very good for my health and my need to slim down just a little bit more...but I'm anxious about my stamina.
I am undecided about:
What to do about my sister and her husband. I want to just bury the hatchet, but I don't want to give him the satifaction of my approaching first. Yeah, I know all about "to forgive is divine" and all that...but I'm not feeling very holy right now, and I think my sister needs to do something about it. She called this morning and asked me to wake him up and tell him she was on the phone so she can warn him about the bad traffic on I-5 to Carlsbad. I asked her to just radio him on their Nextels but she said it doesn't work at home...so I had to knock on the door.
I need to tell her that I don't want to do that if we're not talking and she has to figure out when that will be.
Gotta run to a meeting
You know what I love?
I love it when I go to a true barista and that person knows my name, knows what coffee drink I want, and knows how to make a REAL cup of espresso. Independently owned coffee carts are the BEST.
I am scared of:
The Marilyn Manson website. Why you ask am I visiting a Marilyn Manson website? Well, he redid Depeche Mode's "Personal Jesus" and I want to check out what they're saying about it. But it's hard for me to look at it at work because it looks like I'm looking at demonic devil worshipping and I don't want anyone to get the wrong impression. The verison sounds interesting, and I'd like to own a copy, as I would like to purchase the Johnny Cash version, too.
I am anxious about:
Running. I have agreed to do a running club with some work people and the first one is tomorrow. I think it will be very good for my health and my need to slim down just a little bit more...but I'm anxious about my stamina.
I am undecided about:
What to do about my sister and her husband. I want to just bury the hatchet, but I don't want to give him the satifaction of my approaching first. Yeah, I know all about "to forgive is divine" and all that...but I'm not feeling very holy right now, and I think my sister needs to do something about it. She called this morning and asked me to wake him up and tell him she was on the phone so she can warn him about the bad traffic on I-5 to Carlsbad. I asked her to just radio him on their Nextels but she said it doesn't work at home...so I had to knock on the door.
I need to tell her that I don't want to do that if we're not talking and she has to figure out when that will be.
Gotta run to a meeting
Monday, October 04, 2004
My dad's marker is now installed at his grave. They have the wrong birthdate...well, just the month. But besides that, it was so bittersweet to see it because it's now so very real. I just sat there and wept and I kept touching his name because I needed to sense the reality of that marker and his death.
Ahhhh...I had a pretty good weekend!
Oct 1, 2004
Friday
Nothing exciting, just brought my mom to my aunt and uncle's house. I just stayed home and watched TV.
Oct 2, 2004
Saturday
Woke up early to get the desserts from Dessert Plus (Filipino desserts) and then off to my aunt & uncle's house. My mom and auntie coaxed him to go with them to the casino as a distraction. Secretly they had planned a surprise 60th birthday party, but said it was my cousin's housewarming (their daughter). So the night before when I dropped my mom off, my uncle came out and asked if I was going to the housewarming. I had to think for just a second before finally responding "YES!"
My sister was already at their house and they themed it "Casino Night" to commorate the fact that their past time is casino hopping. It was fun! Surprise parties are always funny because the anticipation to the surprise is always the most exciting part. I think my counsins told everyone to be there by at least 1pm because they would be coming by 2pm...and everyone knows Filipinos and the phenomonon known as "Filipino Time". If you want someone of Filipino descent to attend a party at 1pm, you better tell them it starts at noon or even 1130am.
Suprisingly enough, most everyone showed up right after 1pm. At 1245pm, though, we were very nervous! My cousin Erkel (he reminds us of the grown up Jaleel White) called them and they said they were 10 minutes out...which felt like 30 minutes because we were so excited! I had a disposable camera and got my uncle's reaction as they opened the door.
I felt bad for my mom because she seemed soooo lonely. During the karaoke part of the evening (there's ALWAYS karaoke, hee hee!), the cried when my cousins were singing Filipino songs. I tried to liven up the evening by performing my "William Hung" version of "She Bangs", haha!
So later that night, I left my uncle's house to go to another surprise party for a gal I was in the choir with (lets call her Norah...for some weird reason she reminds me of Norah Jones...and she's gonna see her on Sunday). I've known her, her boyfriend and little brother for 11 years now! There was about 22 of there, and I arrived the same time they did...and saw them across the parking lot at TGIFridays...and RAN to get to the door before them. Miata (the boyfriend...he had a lawsuit with Miata) saw me and stalled by tying his shoes so that I could get in the restaurant. Norah and he arrived right after I did. I've been missing in action, so everyone was surprised to see me, too!
It was fun to hang out with them again. I haven't been to choir since my father passed away, but not because I don't want to go to church or anything...I just haven't been as excited to go as I usually am. I don't know if I'm being weird or introspective or anything, but I'm choosing to become the "occasional Catholic" this year, only going on "major" holidays. It just makes me sad because my dad's funeral mass was at St. Michael's. It's bittersweet. I kind of wish we had it at another church so that I could go to church.
Oct 3, 2004
Sunday
FOOTBALL! Yes, I had AWESOME picks this week, and I just may win the football pool because I only missed 2 games! It paid off to be a Charger fan and a Raider hater this week! If the Ravens win tonight, the entire pool is mine. If they loose, I split the pot...which still isn't too shabby! So...I'm sorry KC, but I hope you keep your loosing streak and continue to next week with a 0-4 record.
I finally put together all of my rubber stamps yesterday. I had to make a bridal shower sample for a co-worker, and since I wasn't going anywhere, I thought I'd do laundry and put together my stamps. I had about 13 kits, and only put together about 11 of them because the other 2 were Christmas ones. I thought I was gonna knit last night, but I think I'll have to save that for another day.
Crafting, football and laundry...exciting Sunday, I know!
Oct 1, 2004
Friday
Nothing exciting, just brought my mom to my aunt and uncle's house. I just stayed home and watched TV.
Oct 2, 2004
Saturday
Woke up early to get the desserts from Dessert Plus (Filipino desserts) and then off to my aunt & uncle's house. My mom and auntie coaxed him to go with them to the casino as a distraction. Secretly they had planned a surprise 60th birthday party, but said it was my cousin's housewarming (their daughter). So the night before when I dropped my mom off, my uncle came out and asked if I was going to the housewarming. I had to think for just a second before finally responding "YES!"
My sister was already at their house and they themed it "Casino Night" to commorate the fact that their past time is casino hopping. It was fun! Surprise parties are always funny because the anticipation to the surprise is always the most exciting part. I think my counsins told everyone to be there by at least 1pm because they would be coming by 2pm...and everyone knows Filipinos and the phenomonon known as "Filipino Time". If you want someone of Filipino descent to attend a party at 1pm, you better tell them it starts at noon or even 1130am.
Suprisingly enough, most everyone showed up right after 1pm. At 1245pm, though, we were very nervous! My cousin Erkel (he reminds us of the grown up Jaleel White) called them and they said they were 10 minutes out...which felt like 30 minutes because we were so excited! I had a disposable camera and got my uncle's reaction as they opened the door.
I felt bad for my mom because she seemed soooo lonely. During the karaoke part of the evening (there's ALWAYS karaoke, hee hee!), the cried when my cousins were singing Filipino songs. I tried to liven up the evening by performing my "William Hung" version of "She Bangs", haha!
So later that night, I left my uncle's house to go to another surprise party for a gal I was in the choir with (lets call her Norah...for some weird reason she reminds me of Norah Jones...and she's gonna see her on Sunday). I've known her, her boyfriend and little brother for 11 years now! There was about 22 of there, and I arrived the same time they did...and saw them across the parking lot at TGIFridays...and RAN to get to the door before them. Miata (the boyfriend...he had a lawsuit with Miata) saw me and stalled by tying his shoes so that I could get in the restaurant. Norah and he arrived right after I did. I've been missing in action, so everyone was surprised to see me, too!
It was fun to hang out with them again. I haven't been to choir since my father passed away, but not because I don't want to go to church or anything...I just haven't been as excited to go as I usually am. I don't know if I'm being weird or introspective or anything, but I'm choosing to become the "occasional Catholic" this year, only going on "major" holidays. It just makes me sad because my dad's funeral mass was at St. Michael's. It's bittersweet. I kind of wish we had it at another church so that I could go to church.
Oct 3, 2004
Sunday
FOOTBALL! Yes, I had AWESOME picks this week, and I just may win the football pool because I only missed 2 games! It paid off to be a Charger fan and a Raider hater this week! If the Ravens win tonight, the entire pool is mine. If they loose, I split the pot...which still isn't too shabby! So...I'm sorry KC, but I hope you keep your loosing streak and continue to next week with a 0-4 record.
I finally put together all of my rubber stamps yesterday. I had to make a bridal shower sample for a co-worker, and since I wasn't going anywhere, I thought I'd do laundry and put together my stamps. I had about 13 kits, and only put together about 11 of them because the other 2 were Christmas ones. I thought I was gonna knit last night, but I think I'll have to save that for another day.
Crafting, football and laundry...exciting Sunday, I know!
