Friday, January 27, 2006
Alright, THIS horoscope is funny...
Daily Extended Forecast for January 26, 2006
You must be tickled that it's almost the weekend. You're the most sensual sign out there, and you know it. So when you become aware that you're especially 'in the mood,' (like you'll be when you wake up this morning) there's just not going to be any stopping you -- and no stopping your partner from giggling in delighted anticipation. In the meantime, get through the day and impress your boss with how meticulous you're being. There's no question that you'll enjoy the evening.
I did enjoy the evening, thank you very much!
Oh GOD, enough said.
Daily Extended Forecast for January 26, 2006
You must be tickled that it's almost the weekend. You're the most sensual sign out there, and you know it. So when you become aware that you're especially 'in the mood,' (like you'll be when you wake up this morning) there's just not going to be any stopping you -- and no stopping your partner from giggling in delighted anticipation. In the meantime, get through the day and impress your boss with how meticulous you're being. There's no question that you'll enjoy the evening.
I did enjoy the evening, thank you very much!
Oh GOD, enough said.
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Ok...so as you know, I'm dating someone.
I work with this someone.
This someone has been trying to ask me out for the better part of a year. He started as a temp last Feb 2005, and became permanent on June 2005. I had been intrigued before, but never acted upon it...then when my own situation changed, I decided to "give in" and find out what this person was all about.
So here we are, actually dating. I didn't think I would be...and I had really made a decision not to. But look at my horoscope for today:
TAURUS
Daily extended
For the next few days, it's going to be all about relationships for you, kid. Other than feeding yourself and your critters, you'll forget about work, play, cleaning the house, and just about anything else. If you're already attached, the object of your affection -- well, let's just say they'll finally understand just how lucky they really are. If you're not, it's definitely time to resume the hunt, in earnest, for the Right One. The universe has equipped you with everything you need. Get busy.
Uh, yeah.
I work with this someone.
This someone has been trying to ask me out for the better part of a year. He started as a temp last Feb 2005, and became permanent on June 2005. I had been intrigued before, but never acted upon it...then when my own situation changed, I decided to "give in" and find out what this person was all about.
So here we are, actually dating. I didn't think I would be...and I had really made a decision not to. But look at my horoscope for today:
TAURUS
Daily extended
For the next few days, it's going to be all about relationships for you, kid. Other than feeding yourself and your critters, you'll forget about work, play, cleaning the house, and just about anything else. If you're already attached, the object of your affection -- well, let's just say they'll finally understand just how lucky they really are. If you're not, it's definitely time to resume the hunt, in earnest, for the Right One. The universe has equipped you with everything you need. Get busy.
Uh, yeah.
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Things have been a little rough going these days.
My mom seems to have taken a turn for the worst as we approach the 2nd anniversary of my father's death. I'm suddenly faced with dating someone, and having to attend to my mother the same way I have been for the past almost 2 years.
Nothing has changed really. I still come home right after work like I normally do. Since I work with the guy I'm dating, it's easy to arrange to take him home or go out for a little while right after work (nope, he doesn't drive at the moment). In that regard, there has been a day or two when I do come home later than normal.
What has happened with my mom is the realization that my father is really not coming back. The first year was just coping with the idea. Now the idea has sunk in, and it's very painful and extremely confusing for her, and it's even more confusing for her daughters.
I honestly don't know what to do for her. She wants me home and there when it gets dark, and I try to do the best I can to be there. But this is a new dating situation. We aren't at ALL into the whole "boyfriend/girlfriend" thing by any stretch of the imagination...but it is getting interesting and it is fun. So when it's outside of work, I try to see him when I can, and it's difficult with my mom and a "curfew" as my work buddy calls it.
Once my sister starts working again, I think things will improve. I believe my mom thinks that no one needs her. I especially believe that she thinks that she will lose me because I am dating someone. She completely freaked out last night when I went out with my neighbor because I came home at 945pm and it was dark. She just has been afraid of being alone since she was young and is just used to someone always being there.
I'd like to think I'm a pretty rational person. I can get wrapped up in a situation, but I try my best to make the seperation between what applies to me and what doesn't. I really have to make that distinction now that I'm dating someone at work. You see that person outside of work and talk to them on the phone, then suddenly at work you have to either act like you aren't familiar with that person, or saw them all weekend. The language has to change, and you have to not be offended when you hear the response to "How was your weekend?" and you hear "Oh, I went out with friends and watched football...you know, the normal weekend" knowing that it was you he was out with, and you that he watched football with all day, lol.
But I guess that since I've never been married, I just don't understand that tie to another person. The person who died was my father. He is and was very important to me. I had every intention for him to walk me down the aisle when the occasion would ever present itself, and I will never have that (I think that's my fear of marriage...but that's whole different story).
I'm trying to understand, and I'm trying to figure out my role as a daughter who wants to try to live a fairly "normal" life. I didn't think I'd date at all, let alone this soon (again, I'm being vague as to why that would be an important statement). So for me to even be dating is strange in of itself.
Ok, I need to go...but I will go into my "dating" situation in the next entry. It's lunch and I want to eat.
My mom seems to have taken a turn for the worst as we approach the 2nd anniversary of my father's death. I'm suddenly faced with dating someone, and having to attend to my mother the same way I have been for the past almost 2 years.
Nothing has changed really. I still come home right after work like I normally do. Since I work with the guy I'm dating, it's easy to arrange to take him home or go out for a little while right after work (nope, he doesn't drive at the moment). In that regard, there has been a day or two when I do come home later than normal.
What has happened with my mom is the realization that my father is really not coming back. The first year was just coping with the idea. Now the idea has sunk in, and it's very painful and extremely confusing for her, and it's even more confusing for her daughters.
I honestly don't know what to do for her. She wants me home and there when it gets dark, and I try to do the best I can to be there. But this is a new dating situation. We aren't at ALL into the whole "boyfriend/girlfriend" thing by any stretch of the imagination...but it is getting interesting and it is fun. So when it's outside of work, I try to see him when I can, and it's difficult with my mom and a "curfew" as my work buddy calls it.
Once my sister starts working again, I think things will improve. I believe my mom thinks that no one needs her. I especially believe that she thinks that she will lose me because I am dating someone. She completely freaked out last night when I went out with my neighbor because I came home at 945pm and it was dark. She just has been afraid of being alone since she was young and is just used to someone always being there.
I'd like to think I'm a pretty rational person. I can get wrapped up in a situation, but I try my best to make the seperation between what applies to me and what doesn't. I really have to make that distinction now that I'm dating someone at work. You see that person outside of work and talk to them on the phone, then suddenly at work you have to either act like you aren't familiar with that person, or saw them all weekend. The language has to change, and you have to not be offended when you hear the response to "How was your weekend?" and you hear "Oh, I went out with friends and watched football...you know, the normal weekend" knowing that it was you he was out with, and you that he watched football with all day, lol.
But I guess that since I've never been married, I just don't understand that tie to another person. The person who died was my father. He is and was very important to me. I had every intention for him to walk me down the aisle when the occasion would ever present itself, and I will never have that (I think that's my fear of marriage...but that's whole different story).
I'm trying to understand, and I'm trying to figure out my role as a daughter who wants to try to live a fairly "normal" life. I didn't think I'd date at all, let alone this soon (again, I'm being vague as to why that would be an important statement). So for me to even be dating is strange in of itself.
Ok, I need to go...but I will go into my "dating" situation in the next entry. It's lunch and I want to eat.
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
What a year. I can't even really go over all of the events that have affected me this year because they are too personal. Maybe someday I can disclose everything, when everyone else is comfortable with their own situations. It's not my place to reveal anything right now for them.
I can however, reveal how I have been feeling coming on 2 years on March 7, 2006 of my father's passing.
I can say that I learned quite a bit since then:
I learned patience.
I learned humility.
I learned tolerance.
I learned about the depth of my sadness, anger and happiness.
I learned to open my heart to possibilities.
I learned to truly love.
I know I have burned bridges out there with some of you...again, those of you may or may not still be reading this. I made decisions to ease how I live my life, and if you were a casualty of my self discovery, I'm sorry it had to happen that way...but it was necessary.
Where I have let go, I have also accepted. I'll have to say my beautiful niece has opened my eyes to love.
I thought I knew what love was. I love my parents, my sister, my relatives, my friends...and I have been in love. But what my little Squishy has taught me was that you can love something beyond words, even if you have never met that person before they took their first breath on this earth.
When I heard her heartbeat that one time I went with my sister to her doctor's appointment, I felt a sudden rush of emotion come out of me. I had never felt that before. Then when I saw her for the first time at the hospital on December 3, 2005...I felt such love and happiness. One of my friends said that she had never seen me so incredibly proud before...she said it was wonderful to see it in my eyes, and in my demeanor.
So now, I'm about to embark on something that could possibly be pretty darned incredible. Without saying too much, I haven't felt this kind of excitement in about 6 years. This is a big chance I'm taking...because I said that I wasn't going to so soon.
And it scares the living daylights out of me.
Happy New Year everyone.
I can however, reveal how I have been feeling coming on 2 years on March 7, 2006 of my father's passing.
I can say that I learned quite a bit since then:
I learned patience.
I learned humility.
I learned tolerance.
I learned about the depth of my sadness, anger and happiness.
I learned to open my heart to possibilities.
I learned to truly love.
I know I have burned bridges out there with some of you...again, those of you may or may not still be reading this. I made decisions to ease how I live my life, and if you were a casualty of my self discovery, I'm sorry it had to happen that way...but it was necessary.
Where I have let go, I have also accepted. I'll have to say my beautiful niece has opened my eyes to love.
I thought I knew what love was. I love my parents, my sister, my relatives, my friends...and I have been in love. But what my little Squishy has taught me was that you can love something beyond words, even if you have never met that person before they took their first breath on this earth.
When I heard her heartbeat that one time I went with my sister to her doctor's appointment, I felt a sudden rush of emotion come out of me. I had never felt that before. Then when I saw her for the first time at the hospital on December 3, 2005...I felt such love and happiness. One of my friends said that she had never seen me so incredibly proud before...she said it was wonderful to see it in my eyes, and in my demeanor.
So now, I'm about to embark on something that could possibly be pretty darned incredible. Without saying too much, I haven't felt this kind of excitement in about 6 years. This is a big chance I'm taking...because I said that I wasn't going to so soon.
And it scares the living daylights out of me.
Happy New Year everyone.
