any second now...

Ummm...I did something quite ramdom, but very exciting. Some of you know what it is...the rest will find out soon enough.

Yeah.

So yeah, it's been awhile. Why? I don't have great internet access at home, I don't want to write my blogs at my boyfriend's house, and I've been training at work so I'm barely at a computer.

The things I want to write about, I can't right now. I've told most of the people I want to tell...and eventually I'll write it here, but not now. There is a time and place for all things, and this will be revealed in time (isn't that a DeBarge song?).

I have been trying very hard to keep in touch with my friends. I've been in that "honeymoon" stage with my main squeeze, and now that it's going to be 6 months...I figure it's time that we start to hang out with friends. So I've gotten to see a lot of you out there lately. Thanks for being patient as I get manage my way through the whole "honeymoon" phase. I love my boyfriend. He's the best. It's very rare that you find someone who will not get angry at the little things and actually try to balance everything out.

So now things are moving along quite nicely. My honey got me a RING. Yes...it's a "promise" ring, which means a promise that an actual engagement ring is in the works. He made me log on to Robbinsbros.com to find the actual engagement ring, but in the meantime, I have a very cute and adorable promise ring that we picked out yesterday. It's lovely...I'm showing it off at work today, lol.

No one has ever bought me a ring before, except for my father. This is quite meaningful for me, and very emotional. When he put it on my finger last night, I cried. I was so happy.

Ive been very tired lately. My asthma has been acting up...so now I'm on antibiotics to fight off this infection that I got from coughing so much due to my asthma. Cripey it sucks.

FOOTBALL

Yes...it's the most wonderful time of the year, my friends. Football season is underway, and it doesn't matter that it's "only" preseason. Any season is a great time for THE NFL.

My cousin...let's call her Rae-Rae, is in town from Toronto. She's been here since July, and she is leaving in 2 weeks. It's been fun with her. She's 15 going on 21 and adorable. She's totally ghetto fab and hip hop all rolled up in one. But she's definitely smarter and more exprierienced than I ever was at that age. I'm going to miss her when she's gone.

Things have been going well with my mom, my sister and everything. We are all getting along, and my mom has completely accepted my boyfriend. She actually really likes him quite a bit. He's fitting in quite nicely with friends and family.

Ah...I'll end this randomness with my little Squishy. My niece...that beautiful bundle of joy is now 8 months old, and is quite the little handfull. She definitely has attitude and personality, and is more fun right now that I ever could have imagined. She likes to think she can walk, hates shoes, eats tons of mashed mac & cheese, and laughs uncontrolably at any silly thing we do. It's the BEST.

*sigh*

I'll sign off. Hopefully it won't take me 3 months to write again. Tootles!

I'm 36.

Yes. I turned 36 on Monday May 8. I'm typing this from my boyfriend's computer, because mine is painfully slow, and I really can't stand the loud Latino music blaring from his roomate's bedroom.

Speaking of my boyfriend, our trip to Ensenada was WONDERFUL. We mostly relaxed because we went on the off season, so a lot of the ammenities that we thought would be available, were only so during the weekend (we arrived on Sunday and stayed until Tuesday). We were drunk the entire time, which was awesome because we just pretty much laid around and enjoyed the view and the weather. We plan on going back during high season.

My dad's cousin died a couple of weeks ago, and the funeral was on my birthday. My aunt's from Canada were in town for my niece's baptismal, so they were able to be here for my mom while I was away, and my sister also stayed at the house. It was quite a busy 10 days off for me.

UNLV graduated today. I'm not speaking to him right now because he got mad at me...hence the drunken entry on May 5. I was here when I typed that, and pissed off. But more on that later.

So DJ and I are going to see one of his dj friends spin Downtown. We just came from go kart racing, which was A BLAST.

Happy belated birthday to Ten (it was on May 10, and she's joined the 30's club). We will definitely schedule that spa day at Glen Ivy soon. That will leave my lovely boyfriend a weekend to himself, hee hee.

See you when I see you.

I am drunk.

I thought I would lay that out on the table first.

The fact that I'm able to type this well is a testimate to patience when I am drunk, and the backspace key.

Editing is my bitch.

A good friend of mine started this topic at a message board:

Where is the most beautiful place you've stood.

Here was my response:

Here are the most beautiful places I've ever stood:
1. In the hospital room, seeing my niece for the first time.
2. Between my parents when I graduated college.
3. Next to my sister as her maid of honor during her wedding.
4. In front of my boyfriend when he said "I love you" for the first time.

I got my birthday and Easter present all at the same time this past weekend. My wonderful boyfriend got me a bunny (because I pestered him for one...but it's stuffed, not real) and THIS Coach bag, which I had NO idea I was getting. He was very anxious to give it to me, so I was able to get it early.

Isn't it BEAUTIFUL?!

I got him his Puma shoes he's been wanting, and a Guess jacket to match them. The second part of my birthday gift is that trip to Ensenada.

I just have to figure out a way to break it to my mom that I'll be gone for 4 days.

Today is my 2nd "month-aversary" with my boyfriend.

I kind of had a little "momentary lapse" of relationship last night that sent me tumbling backwards into that insecure girl pining for that guy who she feels that she could turn around if he could just give her the chance to prove it (*draws in deep breath*).

DJ and I had a tiny disagreement, that he fell asleep after having with me...then just never responded to any of my messages until I went to pick him up for work this morning. Of course he explained that he was feeling quite sick (he almost lost his voice and has been coughing all day), and just knocked out and never got any messages until about 4am this morning...then felt like shit for not realizing that I thought we were still fighting.

But it just really really reminded me of everything that happened over the years with UNLV, you know? Those phone calls that were never returned; messages and emails he never responded to. All throughout this relationship with DJ, I had never felt insecure of us...not once...

until last night.

For a few hours last night, I felt helpless. Short of driving over to see if he was ok, I was pretty nervous that I had offended him enough to avoid contact with me. Of course, when I saw him this morning, he just grabbed me and held me to let me know that he would never ignore me on purpose.

I love that guy. I just nominated him for Customer Service Employee of the Quarter at work. He's really great at explaining the Part D drug benefit for Medicare in a way that even I understand it!

I will not apologize for the blatant gushing over my boyfriend. You can virtually (or actually, doesn't matter to me) puke your guts out, but he is the best boyfriend ever.

So there... :)