Wednesday, April 05, 2006
Today is my 2nd "month-aversary" with my boyfriend.
I kind of had a little "momentary lapse" of relationship last night that sent me tumbling backwards into that insecure girl pining for that guy who she feels that she could turn around if he could just give her the chance to prove it (*draws in deep breath*).
DJ and I had a tiny disagreement, that he fell asleep after having with me...then just never responded to any of my messages until I went to pick him up for work this morning. Of course he explained that he was feeling quite sick (he almost lost his voice and has been coughing all day), and just knocked out and never got any messages until about 4am this morning...then felt like shit for not realizing that I thought we were still fighting.
But it just really really reminded me of everything that happened over the years with UNLV, you know? Those phone calls that were never returned; messages and emails he never responded to. All throughout this relationship with DJ, I had never felt insecure of us...not once...
until last night.
For a few hours last night, I felt helpless. Short of driving over to see if he was ok, I was pretty nervous that I had offended him enough to avoid contact with me. Of course, when I saw him this morning, he just grabbed me and held me to let me know that he would never ignore me on purpose.
I love that guy. I just nominated him for Customer Service Employee of the Quarter at work. He's really great at explaining the Part D drug benefit for Medicare in a way that even I understand it!
I will not apologize for the blatant gushing over my boyfriend. You can virtually (or actually, doesn't matter to me) puke your guts out, but he is the best boyfriend ever.
So there... :)
I kind of had a little "momentary lapse" of relationship last night that sent me tumbling backwards into that insecure girl pining for that guy who she feels that she could turn around if he could just give her the chance to prove it (*draws in deep breath*).
DJ and I had a tiny disagreement, that he fell asleep after having with me...then just never responded to any of my messages until I went to pick him up for work this morning. Of course he explained that he was feeling quite sick (he almost lost his voice and has been coughing all day), and just knocked out and never got any messages until about 4am this morning...then felt like shit for not realizing that I thought we were still fighting.
But it just really really reminded me of everything that happened over the years with UNLV, you know? Those phone calls that were never returned; messages and emails he never responded to. All throughout this relationship with DJ, I had never felt insecure of us...not once...
until last night.
For a few hours last night, I felt helpless. Short of driving over to see if he was ok, I was pretty nervous that I had offended him enough to avoid contact with me. Of course, when I saw him this morning, he just grabbed me and held me to let me know that he would never ignore me on purpose.
I love that guy. I just nominated him for Customer Service Employee of the Quarter at work. He's really great at explaining the Part D drug benefit for Medicare in a way that even I understand it!
I will not apologize for the blatant gushing over my boyfriend. You can virtually (or actually, doesn't matter to me) puke your guts out, but he is the best boyfriend ever.
So there... :)
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